Wow, have you ever wished someone you cared about would read a book so they would understand the words you aren’t able to say? This is one of those books. I had no idea what to expect when I bought it. I started the first page and instantly knew I might be in over my head emotionally but Felicia kept it real and she wrote this story in a way that anyone could understand.
There are books out there about self mutilation but this one takes it a step farther and explains Borderline Personality Disorder. The feelings that come with this disorder can isolate a person from society, especially teenagers. Feelings of abandonment, so they push people away before they can be abandoned. Cutting to be able to breathe again and feel numb. Having people in your head, telling you that if you cut or if you run you will be safe, they will still love you. Feeling like people only see the evil in your so you try to be good so they won’t leave you. Most of all the thoughts of dying and suicide, to end the pain and save others from being hurt at well.
Kristen was a seventeen year old girl who had seen more horror in her few years than most adults would ever see in a whole life time. The actions of one person tore her family apart, the secrets and denial of the other family members just kept the wound open till someone was going to bleed to death. When a suicide attempt sends her to Bent Creek Mental Hospital, she felt she was a failure and going to prison. What she found was more heart-break and pain, but also the right to claim and believe she was a survivor.
Felicia did an awesome job at keeping the story flowing at a steady pace. She introduced characters to the reader and shared their story and life with us. I found myself wanting to take a break from the emotional over load of the story yet I couldn’t put the book down. I needed to know what was going to happen to Janine, Rocky, Daniel, and the other teens we were introduced to at the mental hospital.
I also needed to know if Kristen was going to be able to survive going back home with scars on her wrist and arms, her best friend getting married to the boy who Kristen had feelings for. Would she be able to mend the fence with her mother and twins and really start a new life? Would the one person who tore this family apart be allowed back in at the risk of Kristen’s sanity? This book takes you from the moment her brother finds her barely breathing, bloodied and unconscious, through her stay at the mental hospital, and then back home struggling to find a place to fit in and be accepted. She was going to have to let go of Mr. Sharp, the man in her mind that comforted her and also encouraged her to cut so she could breathe. She was going to have to answer questions as to why she did it, and try to explain why she doesn’t think like others. So many times people would tell her to just stop thinking like that, stop cutting, stop getting upset, but what they don’t understand is Kristen couldn’t. This was how her mind worked and what she needed was for people to be patient and help her through the hard times when she was struggling, not remind her of how she was making it hard for others and hurting their feelings. If Kristen could have stopped it she would, but she couldn’t and now she has to deal with feeling like a failure and having others remind her that she is difficult to be around.
Felicia did an outstanding job at explaining Borderline Personality Disorder and making sure it was clear that this disorder does NOT make the person, it is the person living WITH this disorder. I suggest all teachers, counselors, and anyone working with teens read this book. I also think if you have someone in your life with BPD, read this. They don’t have the words to explain what they feel or how they think, and even if they did the fear is to great in many cases to be able to express it. I think many will be thanking Felicia for giving them a voice after their loved ones read HER and understand what torment BPD causes.
You can purchase her book at Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1371595612&sr=1-1&keywords=her+by+felicia+johnson
WARNING…………………………….The trailers are IMPORTANT to watch, but if you have any triggers with cutting, blood or BPD then you might not want to watch them.
This is from Felicia’s Facebook Page: There are two trailers. The first trailer is heavy and dark. It is entitled: Pain.The other trailer is a bit lighter entitled: Hope. We made two trailers to signify and illustrate the black and white thinking that sufferers of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) struggle with.
Find her book and review it after you read it at Goodreads: http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/18042108-her?ac=1
Just a short clip on Youtube about her book; http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=F6u6CWrMMmg#!