I am going to start this review with an apology. I am not sure how to write this without inviting you into my personal space a bit. The author sent me a request to read this book earlier today. I accepted in exchange for an honest review. She immediately sent me the book and I figured I would get to it later this week, but something kept nagging at me to start it now. It was a short story, I was caught up with my blog, so why not.
I am not really able to give you much of a summary about the book because I don’t want to spoil a single scene in it. The moments when you realize what you are reading will hit you in the gut at times. There are scenes when you finally understand what is happening and it will warm your heart.
What I can say is there was once a little girl name Suki. She had two parents who wanted and loved her very much. She was created out of love and she taught love and courage to her parents. This was written in honor of Suki. You will see that it is from her point of view as she is developing inside her mother’s womb. Her two parents are very much in love, but not married because one of them has a fear of the marriage falling apart. Fear paralyzed the mother in a lot of life’s choices that she needed to make. Her theory was better to not make a choice and think about it for a while than to rush in and be hurt. You will watch the mother and father go through the pregnancy as the mother’s body is changing and the emotional surges that create chaos and stress. The pride the father has when announcing they are going to create a family and how he is determined to make sure his family is safe and happy. As life rears it ugly head and tears their dreams apart, you will watch how the mother and father cling to each other trying to find answers that don’t exist. Things happen, life is unfair and cruel and sometimes there is just no one to blame.
So this is the part where I have had to beg for your forgiveness, because for me to review this book and not give spoilers, I am going to tell you what this meant to me. My father died when I was 13. I have said the same things as Suki’s mother said, all of the things we never got to do together because one of us left. Friday is his birthday. I have tried very hard to stay busy and not think about it. I usually go volunteer somewhere or do an act of kindness for someone in need on his birthday. This is how I want my children to know their Grandpa.
While reading this book I came to the end. My heart was breaking for the characters, I was already feeling the tears running down my face. I was thinking of my friends who had suffered the same situation as this couple and I read this…..
“I urged her to rest. I let her know that she would need all the strength she could muster to survive these two tremendous losses in such a short period of time. But I also told her that the payoff would be that she would always know exactly what love looks like. She would be able to bring it to other people’s lives and have a tremendous impact on them.
I said that she would not be the one to bury Daddy, and that it was better this way because she would never be able to handle it, and all that she came here to do would be washed away in her grief. Instead, I told her, the loss of my dad will remind her not to waste time on fear and sorrow because nothing is more important than the quality of time that she has with her loved ones on Earth.
I wished her great happiness, and assured her that all is well and she will forever be loved.”
This is what this book brought me. Validation that remembering my Dad the way I have been on his birthday isn’t stupid, it is making sure that what I came here to do in life wouldn’t be washed away in my grief. Another point that I needed to hear was I know what it is like to be loved and to be loved forever.
This book will make you cry, it will make you think about what you are doing with your life right now. Most of all it will make you think of those you have lost and what valuable gifts they gave to you while they were here. Those gifts can’t be taken from you, they can be given the chance to grow to the point you must share them with others. The other option is you can give those gifts away to the sea of grief and they will be lost forever. It is okay to move on and live life again. This is what they want us to do, take what they gave us and be happy. This was a powerful book, I am so glad I listen to that nagging voice telling me I must read it today because it gave me what I needed to face Friday.